First things first … I’d like to give a HUGE shout out to all of you who have left me such uplifting, heart felt comments. I know I’ve probably repeated this many times to some of you, but I can’t stress it enough how much it means to know that we have all of you pulling for us.
Yesterday was rough … the news we got about Andrew wasn’t what I wanted to hear at all, so it was sort of the “straw that broke the camels back” if you will , and it just brought everything to the surface for me. What I really wanted were some kudos … Like ” good job Hannah, you’ve been such a good sport, your reward is his kidneys are improving”. It was actually really cathartic to release all of that in my post yesterday. In fact I have to say that starting this blog ( thank you SO much meg ) has really helped me. It’s so liberating to be able to write so candidly about how I feel and not care what people are going to think. And besides that I’ve gained so much more support threw the blogging community, it’s really awesome, and I’m totally overwhelmed by it all.
I’ve probably mentioned this a time or two before as well , and this I’m sure won’t be the last, but I LOVE LOVE LOVE my doctor … who by the way will be referred to as “Dr. Magic” or “Dr. C” simply because it sounds cooler than Dr. Chmait, and I think he’d like it. !! He called me this morning to make sure I was ok and to remind me not to give up hope. He encouraged me to stay positive and optimistic and that we shouldn’t hang our hats based on the results of the cordosentisis … more importantly he reminded me that I’m only the vessel … that if results are good, it’s not because of me or anything I’ve done and if results are bad, it’s not because of me or anything I’ve done. It was a nice little heart to heart that’s helped get me back on tract.
So today’s a new day … and with it I have a new attitude ! I’m going to focus on the positive … my baby has a strong heart beat, he’s growing and developing normally, his lungs are getting stronger with everyday he’s inside of me and he’s receiving the BEST care imaginable !
yep … she’s back ladies and gentlemen ! And to reward myself, I think I’ll go hunt down my king sized snickers !!!!! 
Howdy! My name is Hannah and this is my blog! While pregnant with my second child and on house arrest, I mean bed rest, due to some serious complications... I figured it'd be cheaper if I started blogging rather than shop online, so here I am ~ blogging about my MIRACLE baby, and at times my crazy ass pre-schooler! BTW, I've learned that just because I'm a REALLY GOOD online shopper, does not make me "computer savvy!"
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Now, that’s the Hannah we know and love! Stay positive and don’t let yourself get discouraged. In addition to praying for yours and Andrew’s health, I always make sure to pray for you to stay up beat and to keep a positive outlook. Seriously, this has been the most God has heard from me in a while. I’m talkin his ear off
Just know that you’ve got a ton of support. I even have a co-worker with a prayer group that is hooked to your blog. She loves you guys and has never even met you! Love ya!
By Jess on 09.05.08 1:05 am | Permalink
What no B&J’s peanut butter cup! Glad to know your out of your funk!!! Luv ya!
By Heather Paige on 09.05.08 3:29 am | Permalink
Hey, Hannah! Heather just let me know about your blog…Reagan and I have been thinking about you! Ever since I had heard about your surgery, we have been praying for Andrew. Every night I ask her who she wants to pray for and she always mentions Papa Tom (her late grandfather), Frisco (her late lab retriever), and now “that baby” as she likes to call Andrew! I don’t know if he minds, but she’s grouped him with a very important person/pet. Anyway, I guess we need to add you to the list because you’re the one dealing with all of this. Andrew is a precious boy and loved by us all already!! I went back to work yesterday and had to leave Will with his daycare. For the first time, I had to leave my baby boy more than a couple of hours, and my heart ached for him. I know how you feel about your baby. We all love him so much already!
By Karen Goodman on 09.05.08 4:44 am | Permalink
Hey, woman. I’m glad you’re feeling better. Moments of sadness, frustration and anger only show that you’re human. And you ARE human, in case you weren’t sure about that.
Andrew’s a lucky kid to have such a dedicated mom. Keep it up. Kisses!
By AMomTwoBoys on 09.07.08 5:09 pm | Permalink
Glad you are feeling better! Having a doctor you trust is so important.
By sheasy on 09.08.08 12:50 am | Permalink
I meant to comment on your last post – but I didn’t have time to be thoughtful (too much chaos around me) and then I never made it back. Sound like you’ve been getting a lot of support thought – so I’m sure I wasn’t missed! But I do want to tell you how brave I think you are. Not only do you survive these experiences, but you also share them – and that requires real strength of character. And this last post is a perfect example of that. I think we’d all send you chocolate if we thought it would help…
By Kate on 09.08.08 1:34 am | Permalink
Hi Hannah,
Lindsay, Jenna’s sister, here. I feel that pretty much any words I could say would be inadequate but I did want you to know that one more person is thinking of you and Andrew. You are however so lucky and fortunate to have wonderful family support and the only thing I can say is hold on to that!! My heart aches for you every time I read your posts and although I have lost pregnancies before I can say that I know that it does not compare to what you are experiencing and I’m hoping and praying for the best outcome for you and Andrew along with all of your other supporters.
By Lindsay on 09.09.08 11:56 pm | Permalink
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